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Happy Holidays: Family Update and Thoughts

Note: I have not posted anything here for two months due to a couple of factors: a general lack of personal reading (which is a big stimulus for my writing) and the fact that these last two months have been almost frantically busy, mostly on the business side of things. I should get back to normal soon.

We are grateful that 2021 has been another good year. I hope all of you can say the same.

It was also an eventful year for many reasons. For example, David, our oldest son (22), transitioned from college to the Air Force. He is currently in basic training (boot camp) and then on to school for cyber security. Yes, to the chagrin of his mother, they have boot camp over Christmas. As for me, I am proud and impressed with the opportunity he is getting. I am not joking when I say I am even a bit jealous. Here is a picture from the day we dropped him off.

Kelsey, our oldest daughter (19), pretty much runs my business these days while going to college online (Purdue). She is working on an expansion in the next few months: a new warehouse that will open just south of Salt Lake City in mid-March. I assume she will spend a good amount of time out there over the coming year getting that set up. Here is a video she recently did.

Katelyn is 18, and a senior in high school. She is doing school online and is our social media manager, working about 20 hours/week. She is an artist who is currently obsessed with painting road signs (we don’t ask where she steals gets them). As you can see from this one, she also likes van Gogh.

Zach is our youngest and is a junior in a private high school in the area. He plays basketball and is currently working at a local restaurant.

As for Marla and I, we celebrated 25 years of marriage this year, sort of with a whimper. There were all kinds of timing problems and covid problems that kept us from doing what we wanted to do (an international trip), so we will have to celebrate in 2022 (hopefully).

I am always a bit bemused by end-of-year update letters like this one because they tend to make the most dysfunctional family look like the Bradys. I can assure you that regardless of what I just wrote, we have more than our share of normal issues, problems, and even dysfunction too. I am just not writing about those things. 🙂

One of the conclusions that I came to in 2021 was that I have absolutely no interest in retirement. I love what I do; I love working in my business, improving it and making it more efficient. I like freedom and flexibility but I have no desire to remove the tension of work from my life. I wrote about that a few times in the last year such as here: Retirement: Why FIRE Is Probably a Bad Idea.

So, our plan is that 2022 will look a lot like 2021 except that we will be living in Salt Lake City for a decent chunk of the year. We have a house near our warehouse there and we love the area. We are currently in the process of transitioning from the ski-rental kind of skiers to ski-owner kind of skiers. Even in the summer, there are a zillion things out there that we enjoy doing.

I also plan to read more and write more and begin moving toward speaking more. I am still meandering around in what that will look like, but to give you hints, here are the last five books/lecture series I will admit to consuming:

Nicomachean Ethics (Aristotle)
The Structure of Scientific Revolutions (Kuhn)
The Great Questions of Philosophy and Physics (Gimble)
Objectivism: The Philosophy of Ayn Rand (Peikoff)
The Dream of Enlightenment: The Rise of Modern Philosophy (Gottlieb)

It has become increasingly politically incorrect to say “happy holidays” during this season but I will say it anyway. Remember that whatever you find that makes your holidays special can (and probably should) be extended throughout the next year. I hope you will intentionally choose to do so (with possible exceptions of outdoor holiday lights and overeating 🙂 )

There are many things in life that we cannot control; any level of humility tells us that. But as much as is possible, resolve to live well in 2022. We will do likewise.

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Why excitement may be getting in the way of your success

It has become very fashionable in these strange covid days to quit your job. There are all kinds of theories as to why that is the case, but the prevailing one is that a lot of people are simply looking for something new. In many cases, they are bored in their current jobs.

I get it. Over twenty years ago, I made the decision to leave corporate America, and I have never regretted it. Leaving full-time employment was far from just about money; in fact, when I quit, I was barely making any money at all in the little business I had started.

Money withstanding, quitting my job completely changed the lifestyle of our family for the better. That is not to say that those twenty years have always been easy, but I have had a very good and rewarding life both professionally and non-professionally.

It has also been a life that few would categorize as boring. I ran at least one business during all of those twenty years, and it has been a roller coaster with big successes and big failures. And, for the majority of that time, I was also a professional musician, churning out ten albums, a ton of instructional video content, two for-TV concerts, and a lot of other similar work.

Yes, it is hard to get bored when you have your own money at risk in a business that is bouncing between bankruptcy and success. And in my case at least, there was certainly nothing boring about the professional music career either. I was bankrolling elaborate and expensive albums/projects sometimes costing over $100K that could either flop or succeed (in my case, a bit of both). There is undeniably a big rush that comes from the public nature of music (such as concerts) as well.

No, my life has not been boring. And yet, I have often felt bored and restless. I want to talk about that in this post–where that boredom comes from and why it is dangerous.

Here is a principle that I have learned over twenty years. If you can apply this to your life, it may save you a lot of pain:

Excitement and success very rarely coexist. If you are chasing excitement, you likely will not see success, and if you are successful, plan on being bored.

It is rare for moderns to admit what I just said. You will get hints at it from past psychologists and philosophers (such as Ecclesiastes and Arendt). But in general, the modern professional is chasing both excitement and success even though the possibility of having both is almost non-existent.

Here is an example: I interact regularly with business peers, and a question recently came up that I have heard in different forms many times before:

In the early days of my business, it was like the Wild West, full of excitement and fun. How can I keep that culture in my business today?

There was a time in my life when I would have answered that question with a string of business babble and buzz words about company culture and such. These days, here is my answer:

You can’t… unless you want to put your success at risk.

The truth is that the business was more fun in the early days because it almost certainly was not yet successful. But over time, that changed, and as it turns out, success is boring.

In fact, you will find that when you are seeing the greatest success, you will feel like you are hardly doing anything at all. Furthermore, it is hard to replicate the rush you remember from more exciting times now that your success has mitigated the risk that you used to face.

Yes, it is the painful struggle that brings excitement. You will never feel more excited than when a lot is at risk and the ending is in doubt. Excitement comes from tension, and tension can only come from risk and uncertainty.

Let me put it another way: excitement and success are incompatible because excitement needs risk while success essentially is the elimination of risk.

This is a truth that we all instinctively understand. For example, the University of Alabama has an ultra-successful football program, but I have little interest in watching many of its games. Its games are boring blowouts, and the risk of losing is nonexistent almost all of the time. That is why Nick Saban is always whining because students leave in the 3rd quarter.

Now, once you understand this uneasy relationship between success and excitement, you have to learn to live with it. That is harder than it sounds, but managing that relationship will help you avoid traps and bad decision-making. For example, here is something else I can now see about myself:

My worst business decisions have always occurred when I thought I was chasing success but was really chasing excitement.

I will give you one example from my past. We launched a skincare product about fifteen years ago and things went just fine at first as we stuck with our bread and butter: ecommerce. However one day, an infomercial company called, and before I knew it, we were heavily invested in making a 30-minute infomercial. It was expensive, but it was also exciting. I flew to Miami a few times during production and enjoyed hobnobbing with the production crew and actors.

The story is long, but I will cut to the punchline. Within a year, we had lost a ton of money on production costs, inventory, TV spots, radio ads, and a lawsuit with a competing company. All because I made a series of bad decisions that took us out of an area in which we were good into something that was more exciting.

The truth is that it took me a long, long time to learn this lesson, and I could give example after example of my stupid decisions. But, here is something I eventually learned about success:

If you want to see success, learn to do one thing so well that it bores you.

Now, to apply this to real-life (not just business), here is the big problem: we are not wired in such a way that we can be happy while bored. As I have written before, if we do not have enough tension/excitement in our life, we have a tendency to manufacture some, even when doing so is destructive.

If you stop and think about it, I would bet you can identify ways you have made decisions for excitement even when you knew there was the potential for enormous damage.

I will give you a simple example from my own personal life. If I am in a boring conversation, I have a tendency to say something to start an argument. I know that it will likely not end well, but I engage in that destructive behavior anyway. I subconsciously choose dangerous excitement over safe boredom.

Or, consider these examples of destructive excitement:

In a boring marriage and looking for excitement elsewhere? I do not have to tell you how destructive that can be to your personal life.

Enjoy the excitement that comes from making big purchases? The $8,000 refrigerator may scratch that itch for a few weeks but also deplete your savings or drive up a credit card balance.

Tired of modest stock market returns? Speculating in cryptocurrency is exciting, but it is likely to destroy your retirement accounts.

Bored with your existing business and want to expand into something new and flashy? Don’t bet that this kind of diversification will work for you as well as staying in your lane and focused on what you already do well.

You may think I am implying that excitement must always be sacrificed for the sake of success. I am actually not implying that at all. We need both success and excitement in our lives. However, here is what I am saying:

Generally speaking, a good life is the result of good decisions.

When you are making big decisions, ask yourself if you are making them for the sake of excitement or success.

And then ask yourself if you are willing to live with the results.

Maybe leave your business and marriage alone and take up hang gliding for excitement. A quiet personal and professional life is highly underrated.

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Newport Vacation

We just got back from a five-week vacation in Newport, RI. Indulge me while I talk about it a bit.

First, here is a question I get all the time: how in the world can you leave your business for that long?

Walking away and putting a business on auto-pilot for a while is probably doable for most entrepreneurs that put their mind to it. It does require preparation or it will not happen. For me, the ability to walk away for a month or more is a goal just like a revenue goal. Here are three general principles that might help those that want to do something similar:

  1. Put aside the ego and make yourself dispensable. If you have to be a big shot and have to be important, your business will always need you. I feel sorry for business owners whose cell phones are always ringing. I don’t see that as a strength; it is more likely a sign of an unhealthy business.
  2. Relentlessly focus on procedures. We have written procedures for everything that goes on in the business, and especially in the months before a long vacation, we go through them to make sure they are complete and accurate.
  3. Hire good people and put incentive plans in place to reward them for owning their responsibilities. I won’t go into everything we are doing in this area, but our people are well compensated for keeping things running smoothly while we are gone.

The other question I get asked is about the expense. Yes, a five-week vacation is expensive, especially in a place like Newport, and especially if you stay in a nice place (we stayed in a beautifully restored older home in a prime location). People spend money on what is important to them, and for us, vacation is a worthwhile expense that we find important. It is an investment in our family and ourselves.

Now, let me talk about Newport itself, because so few are aware of it. It is one of the jewels in America. I have been to many, many beautiful and interesting places around the world, but Newport is probably my favorite destination. That is partly because of an emotional connection and comfort factor; I have been visiting Newport for over 25 years.

Newport can initially come across as just a little tourist trap, but it is way more than that. Founded in the mid-1600s, at one point, it was the second-largest city in New England. It was also very wealthy, mostly because of its harbor. It was eventually occupied by the British and then the French during the Revolutionary War and did not recover for a long time afterward.

Because there was so little economic recovery, Newport contains more colonial-era homes than any city in the country including more well-known spots such as Williamsburg. You can go to Boston and if you search, can find just a handful of colonial homes. In Newport, there are more than 300. Just on the street we lived on, there were a half dozen homes from the 1700s.

Unless you know what you are doing, you can sort of wander by all those homes without really comprehending the history. The home that George Washington met with the French general to plan Yorktown was a few blocks away from our house. The oldest, operating tavern in the US (circa 1680) was a few blocks from us. If you go, do a historical tour or two so you know what happened in the houses you walk by on the street.

Newport is more known for the mansions that were built during the Gilded Age by the Vanderbilts and other rich families. Many of those are open to the public as well. I am not as interested in those mansions, but many enjoy visiting them.

Our house actually was located a few blocks from the harbor (the Thames Street area) and only a block from the intersection of Bellevue and Memorial. Consequently, we could walk pretty much anywhere we wanted and we did. I walked 200 miles during that month actually. It is easy to walk a ton when the weather is so beautiful. A typical day in June is sunny and in the 70s.

My favorite walks were along the harbor (I am obsessed with boats) and the famous Cliff Walk, a 3.5 hike along the ocean cliffs that created the backdrop for the mansions. Many days, I walked the entire Cliff Walk and then back to the house on Bellevue Ave (a total of six miles). The other popular family walk was to the ocean beach about a half-mile away.

One of the things I like about Newport is its proximity to so many interesting places. It is about 1.5 hours from Boston, 1 hour from Providence, and 3.5 hours from New York City. It is also just an hour from Cape Cod and a few hours from New Hampshire, Vermont, and Maine.

That being said, we rarely left Newport on this trip because we have already been to all those places. I did take the boys to New York City once to Madison Square Garden for a NBA playoffs game. We went to Boston once. And we went to see friends a few times here and there, once in New Hampshire and several times in Providence. We went to Block Island once.

But for the most part, we just hung around and took it easy. I did a lot of walking and a lot of reading. We spent a lot of time in coffee shops. We went deep-sea fishing. We picnicked at local lighthouses. We entertained. We had lots of guests come up mostly from Atlanta to stay a few days. Most of the time, there were a few guests living in the house with us.

I have dragged our family through Europe and other complicated places in the past, and there is a time for that. Obviously, part of being a good parent is exposing your children to a lot of things. But for me at least, the best vacations are the ones where you don’t do much. From that perspective, this trip was perfect.

That being said, I did indulge in one thing I have always wanted to do: sailing lessons. Newport is the sailing capital of the entire world. The harbor and bay are just gorgeous and packed with sailboats. There is just not a much better way to spend a morning than out on that water with sails.

My goal was to get to the point where I could take a boat out in the bay without an instructor. I got close but failed to achieve that goal. Hopefully, it will happen next time we are there.

We also, by the way, looked at real estate. Our plan is to buy a second home within a few years, probably in Portsmouth (the town just north of Newport) and we will live there during the summer.

If you are considering going in that direction, here are a few things to know. First, Newport is a sleepy town during the week that explodes into a party town on weekends. I like that actually–I enjoy the party scene in moderation, but it can get rowdy. Sometimes on weekends, it got loud near the house. If you like quiet, stay in Middletown or some of the other little towns in the vicinity.

Also, while Rhode Island is a foodie place on a world-class level, it is tough going right now because of the same labor shortages you see all across the country. We actually largely gave up on eating out because reservations were hard to come by and when you could get them, the service was sub-par. In better times, the restaurant options are just legendary. If you need recommendations, email me.

Here are a few pictures:

It gets foggy on some days in Newport Harbor.

This is through the front gate of the Breakers, a Gilded Age mansion built by Cornelius Vanderbilt.

This is a striped bass I caught off the coast. It was too small to keep by a few inches.

We did a lot of sunsets.

Another favorite picture of mine because it captures my love of boats.

This is at Block Island, a tiny island a few miles off the Rhode Island coast.

A sailboat off the coast of Block Island.

Sailboat off the lighthouse at Castle Hill on the south end of Newport.

This is a very typical street in Newport. Some of these buildings date back to the 1600s and 1700s.

Another bay view from Jamestown, a small island adjoining Newport.

This is the first Baptist church in America. From its settling in the mid-1600’s, Rhode Islanders were a feisty bunch who did not fit in places like Massachusetts where the Puritans ruled (and persecuted) with an iron fist. Religious liberty was a huge thing for them, and they set the standard that the rest of the country would eventually follow.

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Life lessons: How I lost 32 pounds

Back in early January, I stood on a scale and gazed down with a sinking feeling: 202 lbs!

I am 5′ 10″ tall and the BMI formula tells me I should be in the 170 lb range. That makes sense: I was around 170 during college and for several years after college. Slowly, over about 20 years, I added a pound here and there. Along the way, I just stopped weighing myself. I was sort of scared to look at the number on the scale.

Not depressing enough to actually fix the problem, but still depressing…

During the time leading up to my decision to lose weight, I was walking three miles almost every day in our very hilly neighborhood, but doing very little else that would qualify as serious exercise. Most of the day, I was sitting looking at a computer screen.

The biggest thing I was doing wrong was eating. I ate some good food and quite a bit of bad food. I ate fruit and vegetables but also a lot of salty snacks. I drank several soft drinks a week. I ate fast food 1-2 times a week and at a nice restaurant at least once a week. If I had anything going for me, it was that I have never been too attracted to desserts and other sweet foods.

Overall, my diet was not crazy, but it was high in calories and frankly was not something I paid any attention to. If I wanted something, I ate it.

In spite of my unhealthy habits, I still did not look big. In fact, the average person looking at me probably thought my weight was healthy, or at most, I should lose 5-10 lbs. Regardless, I was overweight and I knew it. And finally, I decided to do something about it.

When I decided I wanted to lose the extra 32 pounds, I started looking for plans. I knew I needed some kind of plan; I am wired that way. On the other hand, I briefly looked at the popular plans out there and quickly rejected them. You know the ones I mean: the ones your friends promote on Facebook that involve either expensive supplements or expensive diet food.

I did not reject those plans because I hate MLM. If you are working hard in MLM, I am your fan. I rejected them because I did not think the rigidity of those plans would work for me and I wanted to eat naturally (not tons of shakes or disgusting foods). I figured I would only be able to stick with a plan if it did not make my life miserable.

So, I settled for Weight Watchers. By the way, nothing is for sale here. I am not shrilling for Weight Watchers (note that I am not linking to their website).

I chose WW for a few reasons:

  • It has been around for ages, which is pretty good evidence that it works.
  • It has great reviews from organizations and professionals that actually know what they are talking about.
  • It allows me to eat what I want. I can eat Five Guys on Friday if I want. Granted, I have to account for that somewhere else in my diet, but I can still eat Five Guys. I can put up with a lot of low-calorie meals if I get to splurge once in a while.

It took me 13 weeks to lose the 32 pounds. I lost over 10 of those pounds in the first three weeks. The next 10 pounds took four more weeks, and the last 12 pounds took six more weeks.

It is really simple to understand why WW works. It works because it forces you to start tracking your eating and thus, paying attention to what you eat.

Here is a simple principle for life in general:

If you want to see progress in an area, find a way to start measuring it and tracking the progress.

In WW, you are of course tracking weight, but you are also tracking your diet because every food counts as points against a daily and weekly allowance. Over time, you figure out how to keep your points lower, which is forcing you to eat healthier (and less).

There is another big reason why WW worked for me though: it did not ruin my life. It did not force me to eat things I did not want to eat or do exercises I did not want to do.

Here is some information about what I ate.

I happen to love fruit, and fruit does not even count as points in WW. So, I decided I would have all the fruit I wanted, regardless of the cost. For example, I love raspberries, and I have eaten a ton of raspberries over the last few months. I made sure we were stocked up on all the fruits I love.

Getting plenty of protein is important to maintain muscle mass so that was another focus for me. Chicken breast is almost all protein and I ate a ton of it. I did not really skimp on any meat though I tended to choose leaner cuts of steak.

I also ate a lot of greek yogurt because I love it, and it is a great source of protein. I ate a lot of vegetables and a lot of eggs.

I pretty much cut out bread from my diet and almost all processed foods such as chips and baked goods. I have not had a sugared soft drink in three months though I will admit I drink a Coke Zero from time to time.

Overall, the diet changes just did not feel like much of a sacrifice. Marla and I kept our weekly habit of a date night on Wednesday night at a nice restaurant and I made sure we kept our tradition of having at least one fast food meal with the family on weekends. Granted I had to make some changes in what I ordered, but it did not ruin the experience by any means.

For example, Marla and I like to go to a particular Italian restaurant on Wednesdays. Before I started dieting, on a typical night there, I would drink a sangria and maybe three Cokes. I would split an appetizer, split a loaf of bread (that you dip in oil), eat a salad with ranch dressing, and an entre with a side of fettuccine alfredo.

On WW in diet mode, I got around 25 points a day to spend on food. That meal I just listed is around 100 points. Truthfully, I should have been 400 lbs. Or, I should have been dead.

We did not stop going to that restaurant after starting the diet. I still got the same entre (15 points), ordered a vegetable instead of fettuccine alfredo (0 points), drank only water (0 points), split a salad (5 points), and ate half as much bread (4 points). That is still 24 points, which meant I either needed to use some weekly points or eat lean (almost all fruits and vegetables) the rest of the day. Either option worked fine and I enjoyed those meals about as much.

I have learned that eating a smaller portion slowly and savoring the taste is at least as good as gulping down a large portion.

In regards to exercise, I am not a guy that likes to exercise. I do however like to walk. I was already walking 45 minutes a day, and at first, I decided to double that. I did that for a while but eventually went back to walking 45 minutes a day and also doing a 30-minute resistance workout.

So, between the increased exercise and the reduced calories, the weight came off. It was not the easiest thing I have ever done but is far from the hardest. Looking back, there was nothing special about my plan. It is just a grind where you try to work off 1-3 pounds every week.

Going forward, I am maintaining my weight by being much more conscious of what I eat. However, make no mistake about it: in general, I eat what I want, even if I need to adjust the serving size. I had Five Guys over the weekend (a single cheeseburger rather than a double). I ate ice cream yesterday (about half a bowl rather than a full one). In my opinion, if you try to do this in such a way that deprives you too much, you are destined to fail.

In terms of exercise now that I am in maintenance mode, I am doing maybe half as many resistance workouts, but more walking. (I love walking a ton–I listen to a book a week while walking.)

By the way, I also bought a standing desk a few months ago and very quickly learned to love that. If you have not used one, you probably hate the idea, but I will tell you that you very quickly get used to standing at a desk, and it will feel perfectly comfortable after a few weeks. If you get really tired, you can sit for a while. But standing during the day is healthier than sitting and may burn up to 400 extra calories.

So those are my two big recommendations: if you want/need to diet, first, find a system that forces you to measure and track progress, not just with weight but other factors as well. And secondly, do it in such a way that you can still eat and exercise in ways you find enjoyable at least some of the time. In other words, don’t try to do something that is going to ruin your enjoyment of life.

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A Look Back: Remembering Hugh

Howlett, you know about computers. Why don’t you sell this stuff on the internet?

I heard those words over twenty years ago while sitting in the kitchen and drinking coffee with my friend Hugh. At the time, I had just graduated from college and started a software job in Rhode Island.

Though I did not know it at the time, those were words that completely changed the trajectory of my life and the life of my family.

I met Hugh through the church we were attending. A few decades older than I, he was a successful real estate developer in Rhode Island. Being a real estate developer is hard enough, but that is especially true in a state like Rhode Island that has little available land and a ton of government regulation designed to make development as hard as possible. Hugh thrived in that world of political and legal skirmishes, and he was full of war stories. One fight with an environmental activist went all the way to the US Supreme Court (he won).

I am not sure why Hugh took an interest in me, but he did. Marla and I became friends with him and his wife Vera. I taught their young children piano on Saturday mornings and usually stayed to chat with him. It was one of those mornings when he suggested I start that online business selling a health product sitting on his counter.

Hugh was a bit ahead of the time with that suggestion. Back in 1998, Amazon only sold books and very few people were buying anything online. I probably had not purchased much of anything online myself.

Nevertheless, I took him seriously and went home, and over the next month, built perhaps the ugliest e-commerce website in history. Hugh and I both invested $500 into startup costs, and we opened for business.

That website still exists today. It is still modestly profitable and is run by my children. Soon though, my family moved to Atlanta (where we still live), and Hugh and I dissolved our partnership. I would go on to bigger things, some successful and some spectacular failures. Hugh’s business continued to grow as well.

Hugh would never stop being a giant in my life even after we moved. The way I think about business has been heavily influenced by things he taught me. He was always there to listen, give advice, and frankly, give me correction. A lot of times, I needed correction.

I remember a time where I made the mistake of using the phrase “it’s not personal; it’s just business” with Hugh. He let me know very quickly that I was thinking wrong. Business is personal. How you treat people you interact with through your business matters. You can be tough in business (and often have to be), but your integrity and character matter.

Beyond business, Hugh and Vera taught Marla and me how to live. Hugh worked hard and loved his work, but he also knew how to play hard. We explored the incredible restaurants of Rhode Island. After we moved to Atlanta, we visited them when they vacationed in Florida in the winter, and we went skiing with them several times in Utah. I remember seeing Hugh get excited when we met Tiger Woods out on the slopes one day.

Last week, Marla and I flew to Rhode Island to say goodbye to Hugh. He had been in the hospital for a while, but because of covid restrictions in New England, we were not able to visit. When the family told me he was coming home for the end, we got covid tests and booked flights right away.

Hugh was weak but still wanted to talk. He quizzed me again about why I quit my music career. (That always bothered him.) He mentioned all the laughs we shared. We laughed a lot over the years, and Hugh often said that laughing is an instant vacation.

I asked him if he remembered that conversation over twenty years ago when he told me I should sell something on the internet. He smiled as much as he could and murmured “another thing I was right about.”

One of the last things I said to Hugh was I appreciated that he taught me how to live well. He started crying because he knew what I meant.

The last thing he told me was to “stay true.” He did not have the strength to elaborate, but I did not need him to explain. I knew.

Hugh converted to Christianity as an adult, and his faith changed his life. For him, staying true meant staying grounded in that faith and living accordingly: working hard, staying balanced (ie: playing hard), being a good father and husband, treating people well, and keeping integrity in business dealings. I have known very few people that did these things as well as he did. Hugh did life well.

Over twenty years ago, on one of the last nights before we left Rhode Island, Hugh and Vera took us to their favorite restaurant in Providence, and we ate at a special table there in the kitchen. During the summer of 2019, when our family was on vacation there, we invited them back to that restaurant, and we ate at that same table. Here is a picture from that night.

There is a gigantic hole in Rhode Island now. I have always loved the state, but it will never be quite the same for me.

There are some obvious takeaways to all of this about how just being a great example, showing a bit of interest, and speaking a few words can change someone’s life. I am the beneficiary of that truth. I am not going to go into all that though because I don’t need to. You get the point.

Live well.

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Retirement: Why FIRE Is Probably a Bad Idea

I hear a lot of buzz these days about a retirement strategy called FIRE (Financial Independence, Retire Early). Proponents of FIRE resolve to live very lean and work very hard for a decade or two to save enough money to never have to work again.

I have considered retiring early. I am in a financial position to retire, but I cannot tell you how unappetizing FIRE sounds. To be clear, I am not referring to the financial goals (saving and debt elimination). Those goals are worthwhile and admirable.

Here is an example of what does bother me though. I recently stumbled on a FIRE blog in which the author used every post to document his finances and purchases for the day: $5.71 at Walmart for a spark plug, finding ground beef on sale at Kroger, and on and on.

As I read, I was thoroughly bored, and I found myself asking why anyone talented and disciplined enough to save a million dollars in a decade would trade an active, productive life for that kind of life.

Let’s put aside the fact that spending all of one’s time trying to save pennies hardly feels like financial independence. That is weird enough, but it is not what bothers me.

In the interest of avoiding strawmen arguments, I want to make it clear that the real goal of FIRE is not financial at all. It is about the happiness that supposedly comes with freedom from oppressive bosses, debt, and a 9-5 chewing up your time.

So the real question is whether FIRE can make you happy. I suppose it might in some situations, but overall, I am skeptical, and here is why: it turns out people generally need to work to be happy.

If you quit your job, you likely will be unhappy until you find/create a new one. And quite probably, that new job will be inferior in many ways to the one you left.

For example, in the case of that blog I just mentioned, a person has replaced a probably decent job with a new job. That new job consists of trying to scrape fifty years of life out of a million dollars. The job description includes such things as saving a few dollars at a time at Walmart and micro-managing his mutual funds.

If that new job sounds tedious and maybe a bit boring compared to the last job, that is because it probably is. Be careful what you wish for.

Let’s step back for a moment. FIRE may be a new way to pursue happiness, but it is hardly the first way. Smart people have been writing about achieving happiness for a long time, and I want to highlight two authors that resonate with me.

We could start with the Hebrew book Ecclesiastes, a philosophical book written perhaps around 400 BCE by an unknown author. The general theme of the first part of the book is this: a very rich man who has everything he wants is searching for happiness everywhere, but cannot find it. Eventually, he arrives at this conclusion at the end of chapter 2.

A person can do nothing better than to eat and drink and find satisfaction in their own toil. This too, I see, is from the hand of God, for without him, who can eat or find enjoyment? 

Now, here is a passage from The Human Condition which was written by Hannah Arendt, a mid-20th-century agnostic philosopher:

There is no lasting happiness outside the prescribed cycle of painful exhaustion and pleasurable regeneration, and whatever throws this cycle out of balance—poverty and misery where exhaustion is followed by wretchedness instead of regeneration, or great riches and an entirely effortless life where boredom takes the place of exhaustion and where the mills of necessity, of consumption and digestion, grind an impotent human body mercilessly and barrenly to death—ruins the elemental happiness that comes from being alive.

I could quote many more relevant passages from both books, and I encourage you to read both books. While coming from two very different perspectives, Arendt and the writer of Ecclesiastes both are saying something very similar. Here are two general principles:

  • Happiness requires a balance between pleasure and pain (labor) and it is futile to try to find happiness without that balance.
  • There is value in the work itself. To put it in philosophical terms, it is a mistake to always see work as a means to an end. Rather, the work is an end in itself.

Pay attention, because I think they are right. You need to work to be happy. And if you are working only as a means to something else, you are missing the point. If your goal for work is to work your way out of work, as Ecclesiastes says, you are chasing the wind.

To take it further, if your plan to achieve happiness is to eliminate all the pain in your life, you are on the wrong path. Humans are not designed that way; we need a healthy tension between pain and pleasure, and we tend to try to self-correct to create that balance.

In other words, if you have too much pain in your life, you will try to eliminate it, but if there is not enough pain in your life, you will unconsciously try to create some.

To me, the easiest way to think about that balance is how you might view a board game. People like games because they simulate the pain/pleasure balance. No one likes to play games for long when the balance is off. For example, no one wants the game to be so easy that they always win or so hard that they never win.

Likewise, no one wants to read a book that has no tension between pain and pleasure, and no one wants to watch movies without that tension. Even the sappy Hallmark Christmas movies have that tension. We only feel truly alive when that balance exists.

This is why that FIRE retiree leaves a job that brings pain and immediately contrives a new pain mechanism: a job of stretching pennies. It is also why retirees leave a corporate job and immediately end up working on a daunting honey-do list around the house. People need the pain of labor.

I am not saying there is anything wrong with wanting to retire. People can do what they want to do. But in the case of FIRE, forgive me if I question the wisdom of overworking and living in poverty for a decade or two to save enough money to escape a pain mechanism that is going to be immediately replaced with a far less interesting pain mechanism.

Now, assuming that the true goal of FIRE is happiness, perhaps the real question should not be how to escape work, but rather how to find happiness in work. With that in mind, I want to talk about how to achieve a balance between pain and pleasure in your current situation.

To start, let’s talk about how that balance should look. To go back to the game analogy, people want to play games where there is tension between pain and pleasure, but they want the balance to be a bit off. They want to win most of the time (or even all of the time if the competition is challenging). In other words, they want the pleasure to slightly outweigh the pain. Not by much, but at least some.

That is how you should think about your work. You need a job in which you are winning the game but are challenged. You need a job that plays to your strengths, but in which you have to work hard.

Sculpting such work requires active planning on your part and maybe going against the grain. For example, it is very true that there are forces working against this balance in corporate America. I am reminded of the Peter Principle, which states that a typical employee is promoted to a level that is one step above their competence.

When I started my career, I was a software developer, and I was actually a very good one for a while. I rose rapidly in the company until about two years in, when someone made the decision that I should be promoted into management.

To say I failed in that position would be an understatement. I was just out of college and had no idea how to manage people. I lacked essentially all the professional skills needed to do that job, and within about six months, I asked to go back to developing software.

I cannot claim my decision was guided by any real wisdom, but it allowed me to get back into a better pain/pleasure balance. Sometimes, what may seem like a job advancement is just not best for that balance.

As it turned out, I would eventually leave that career to start a company, which improved my pain/pleasure balance even more. However, to this day, there are areas of our business that I intentionally avoid. I know that I cannot do those things well enough to be happy.

In a nutshell, that is why I am not interested in retirement. I actually cannot imagine giving up what I have now for a life of leisure. I also know that if I choose a life of leisure, I would probably unconsciously find a way to get some pain into it by lunchtime on the first day. So what would be the point?

My advice? Forget about chasing a retirement that will likely not make you happy and rather focus on positioning yourself better in your work. Get yourself in a position where you are challenged but yet winning. Change occupations if you need to. Take a demotion if you need to.

On the other hand, if you are already retired and feel that you are missing something in your life, I can tell you what it probably is: lack of work. It may not matter too much what the work is, because there is value in the work itself. However, if you have the freedom to choose your work, it might as well be something that you enjoy and are good at. It might be a full-time job, a volunteer position, or just a slew of projects around the house.

It is common today to hear self-improvement experts talk about finding purpose in your work, making a difference in the world, and finding your passion. Those things are all good, but they are also not necessary for happiness. In fact, the whole idea that one can do work that makes a huge difference in the world is a very modern idea that has been almost unimaginable throughout most of history. If your work is very noble or influential, that is a nice bonus, and you are lucky. If you enjoy your work, you are very fortunate too.

The truth is much simpler though: happiness comes from the work itself rather than the byproducts of the work. That is what Arendt and the writer of Ecclesiastes were saying. When you get to the end of most days, you need to be able to say “I worked hard today.”

Strangely, that is enough.

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Why You Should Keep Your Mouth Shut At Thanksgiving Dinner

If you accept the assertions I have been making here lately about relativity in objects and the perception of objects, it makes it very easy to understand why you should not discuss controversial topics such as politics at your family dinner this week. The answer is as simple as this:

Even if you and your crazy uncle agree on the universal nature of an underlying object (a moral ideal for example), you probably have very different perceptions of the object.

For example, even though you and your uncle may agree on what integrity is, you are not going to agree on which political party has a better handle on integrity. Your perceptions are probably so different that you might as well live on different planets.

That our perceptions of such ideals as integrity seem to be getting more divergent and unreliable by the year is a big problem that I will address another day. Suffice it to say it is simply too big of a problem to fix at Thanksgiving dinner.

Let’s be honest: it is easy to throw out little comments to bait your uncle who has never met a conspiracy theory he does not love. It is also easy to react when he baits you.

I would remind you of how truly admirable people engage in debate. Go read a bit of Plato. In fact, read his dialogue Euthydemus (which is hilarious by the way) and watch how he recounts Socrates debating utter fools with kindness and grace. I am reading St. Augustine’s The City of God now and see the same characteristics.

We need more of that; a lot more of that. It takes time to argue that way though, and Thanksgiving dinner is probably not the place for it. You are simply not going to change anyone’s perception of reality at a dinner. You will however likely make dinner awkward.

Find common ground. Find a way to discuss the universal nature of the objects themselves rather than relative perceptions of them. You just find out you have more in common than you think. That is the silver lining in all of this. In spite of the acrimony that seems to be getting worse, we still have a lot of common ground when you really go looking for it.

Yes, I am preaching this sermon to myself. Yes, this goes for Twitter too.

Marla and the kids have been working hard on decorating, and I think our house looks spectacular this week. Below are a few pictures.

Enjoy your Thanksgiving. Regardless of our religions or belief systems, we all get the power of gratefulness. I am grateful and hope you are as well.